Archive | October 2012

Weird Girliness

Tis the end of the Octo month, but not the end of creating awareness on cancer and how it can be detected early. Let’s not take these things for granted, I know I also forget. Though, the more we talk about it, it acts as a reminder to many.

It’s Halloween too and am sure enough most of us me included don’t really know what it’s all about. Except the part where there are lots of pumpkins, costume parties, scary stories and the best of all, lots and lots of candy from trick-or-treating. All thanks to movies. That’s one of the main reasons I would love to be where they celebrate. I would probably just dress up like a kid and do kiddy things like go trick-or-treating. A few years ago one of my cousins visited us right after Halloween and she brought us a whole months supply of candy. Am talking mars, snickers, m&m’s, haribo’s and the likes…yumminess galore! (A shout out to Wanja, I still recall).

Halloween is not a culture that’s adopted here, in Kenya I mean. So I won’t even go into it. For us, it’s just another day to be on the grind and hustle. No parties, no candy but there’s always a constant supply of scary stories…lol.

Halloween, Monkey, October

Well, maybe I could take this opportunity to tell you 3 things that I think make me a weirdo girly girl. You know those things that would make you think you’re a girl so you should be into them like the way it’s supposed to be, but I am not.

1. Nail Polish

I have never understood girls obsession with nail polish, this includes my baby sister. I have never been into it, but I have tried to force the trend. I even go ahead and buy the polish that’s in it. Spend between KES 300 – 500 on some good polish and it goes stays on my dresser for a while, say until my sister comes over and does her nails.

I am patient, but I don’t extend my patience to waiting for the polish to dry.

I do lots of miscellaneous housework that involves touching water so I prefer plain trim nails. If the hairdresser insist, I do the colorless polish. I hate how polish looks good when you apply it then smudges, scratches or chips after a few hours or days. That means removing and reapplying … Ai! No need.

2. Make-Up

I just can’t. I have not really tried it on a regular day, say once I tried mascara, which was a massive fail because that means I couldn’t touch or “itch” my eyes. Another thing is, how I dress up in 15-30 mins or less depending on how much I snooze, make up would mean I have to wake up earlier or else it would be Halloween everyday…lol. Or maybe am not yet grown up enough, nothing to conceal, I don’t know. The only time I attempted make up was at my cousin’s wedding, which am sure I’d wiped off by the time the occasion began. Lip-gloss is enough make up for me.

3. Shopping

Yes, it’s retail therapy, ooh some gooood therapy so to say! However, I am more of an impulse buyer than a planned and organised shopper. Every time I plan to go shopping, unless I have involved a dedicated shopper in my plan, that plan goes undone. I do it out of dire need or desperation (I was avoiding that word), but really when I’m like, “I really need shoes or  a coat or …” then I have to go search. In which case, I don’t go looking around much, I probably have a place in mind. It’s like I have some sort of telepathy with whatever it is I want, I don’t have to search long and hard, I just come across it.

Some inspiration for the day. Ooh almost forgot to mention, I love color. At least that one cancels off some weirdo-ness no?

Girl, dreams, plans, ability, woman


Have a beautiful end of month. Take someone out for some shake and cake, scrape off that crave.

Signing Off ~~~ Kawi


Of those things that you see on a Monday and you *sort of* have that conviction to share with someone else who didn’t have the chance to see it.

monday, musings

Well, you see as long as you live, you learn. It doesn’t matter how old or how young you are, every experience teaches you something. You may not necessarily take it in, take it to heart or even think that it’s taught you something. But later in life, you realize that a certain situation as simple or easy as it may sound or be left you a wealth of experience that you probably didn’t think (or wouldn’t have thought) you have.

Even when you feel like you’re not learning something now (at this particular moment in time), just know sometime later as you continue to live, the lessons will come alive. It’s then that you will know that, that moment you felt like you weren’t learning something you were being preparing for the future. I bet that’s how life works. Maybe that’s its way of surprising you and assuring you that every moment you live is important. That you can learn from basically anything, just make those lessons worth the while. You don’t want to learn that sleeping too much will make you achieve nothing…if you know what I mean. That’s just an example…lol. Here something Maya Angelou wrote:

“I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.

I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.

I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life.

I’ve learned that making a “living” is not the same thing as making a “life”.

I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.

I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back.

I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.

I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one.

I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.

I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn.

I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

Hope your Monday was beautiful? Mine was and still is. I can’t complain at all unless I just want to be a spoilt lil’ brat and complain of all the goodness it’s brought. I am more than blessed on this day, thank God.

Live, Life, Fun, Success

This was just a little Monday musing I thought out while in a meeting. I had seen the quote earlier in the day and it kept buzzing and buzzing. More like, “you want to say something about it…no you don’t…just say something…nooo…okay, something small…just do it”. Those were the voices in my head for a moment there, but Maya Angelou has quotes to live by. She’s phenomenal and I can relate to most if not all. No wonder they (I don’t know who’s they though, do you?) say don’t re-invent the wheel because I would have probably written the same, but she said it.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Friday Fives

Thank God It’s Friday! Eeh the week has really flown. It’s like it choses when to have wings, when to have legs, or remain legless. It’s started from a two days leave on Monday and Tuesday. Though it didn’t feel much like one because I was catching up with my research work and so on. Then back to work with of course work excitedly waiting for me. Jeez! Why that happens just after some few days of “resting”. How was your week?

1. Oopsies!

Remember when I used to complain (that’s if you follow me on twitter @Kawiria), that my Electricity bill was either coming in unrealistic amounts like KES 66 or in -ve amounts. There’s actually one month I went without a bill. Well, well, guess what? The REAL bill is now here and boy wasn’t it bill’y.

I had consulted my landlord on the matter (on that note, thank God for a good landlord and lady, those guys are good peoples…God bless them). Anyhow, back to the consultation and he told me the reader was either not doing their job or he was just making guesses on the bill which they usually do *lazy bums* then when thy actually come read your meter you’re bitch slapped with a crazy bill. Which is what happened. The good advice he gave me was, “enjoy the amenities, they are here for you to enjoy. But, don’t eat the money you’re to pay for them…lol”. I was for sure expecting some surprise bill, but wow, surprise, surprise again! We’ll check to make sure that it’s actually my bill, then of course that will lead to wallet damages.

2. Weekly Crackers

Progress in my research work at least. So my hopes of having done chapter one and two by end of October are not so bleak.

Got a research book by Kothari from mother dearest. So thoughtful as I will very much need it for the research. I am not anywhere close to finishing but at least I have made the most procrastinated step, starting it up. Getting ready for the tiresome rounds with the supervisors on corrections, recommendations and ish.

I am supposed to go to the Stanchart marathon and I have not lifted a hand or foot to exercise. Is that really a wise idea? Please note that it’s on Sunday and I was registered for the 10km run…LOL yeah, laugh at me too because the joke will definitely be on me come Sunday. When after a few meters I will start panting like crazy and my joints will be severely aching. That’s if I get the balls to go, I’ve started freaking out.

3. Faves and Craves

I can’t get over the cupcakes at Velvet Chocolate Cupcakes (hope I got the name right) at Junction.

Those cupcakes describe moments of pure yumminess. They come in different flavors, black forest with strawberries (my favorite of course), red velvet, chocolate e.t.c. They are spongy, chilled and melt-in-tongue delish. I don’t know how I finish them, they are never enough.

4. Stupendous Snippet

Today we had a talk dubbed, “Your steps to financial freedom” from Britam Insurance. I have done financial talks before and I almost at some point felt like I was in charge of my finances, somehow, but not today. This one got me thinking I am really not in charge of them. Some saving here, spending here, not spending there, fake budgets. Basically, I need to get serious about it, to plan and budget my finances. Well, that means a lot of recording and having more defined goals. Which I think for a better future, for me and my family *can I hear an AMEN* I need to sort this things out now.

5. T.G.I.F Inspiration

Finances, Future

Have a fun-filled weekend, make the most out of it. I on the other hand will definitely squeeze all the juices out of the weekend and make sure I finish (or at least come close to finishing) what I was supposed to before October. That’s ambition. To living, laughing and loving more.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Friday Fives

Thank God It’s Friday! A little tweaking here and there makes the blog worth visiting no? Hey my Friday people’s *waves*. Just figured I could be having blog friends that come to check our what I have on Friday’s, so it’s only nice if I said hey!

1. Oopsies!

One of those days I was completely overcome by a bout of sleep. You know the one that forcefully befalls you right after you are done with a heavy meal.

Sleepy Head

Others call it “itis” and for sure, it is! Then of course as long as you’re not on your bed, you’re not safe. A colleague took a pic of me and posted it on my mail. That would suffice for blackmail, especially the part they say I was drooling O_O. We harbor Paparazzi’s here.

2. Weekly Crackers

I randomly took him for dinner. He was happy and that’s a yaaaay on my part. Let the good times roll.

My dad, Clara (baby sister) and I pulled a suprise for my mum. Got for her a “gift” or rather a replacement of a treasured item she had broken. Ever heard of a bio disc? Check the link. She even did the purchases because she’s a member and she was still clueless that it’s hers. Super star surpriser (dial +254 72x xxxxxx for bookings). Let’s just say my dad scored like +100,000 points for this since he’s not the kind to pull surprises or buy gifts. However for dads out there like them, this is one of the many kids roles and responsibilities. To be accomplices in such undercover plans.

3. Faves and Craves

Thinking dresses and a nice pair of heels to complete the look. Too full to think anything food. I’m that girl who has never worn a dress to the office, I know, judge me now. I’m also judging myself as I write. Never really thought into it before. Yikes! That’s so not lady like.

My colleague was saying if she had a small body like mine, she will be on those dresses like crazy. Here I’m thinking, “who’s going to shop for them.” Jeez! Maybe I’m really wasting myself. I should start budgeting and looking for time and people to take me to buy them. I think they’d look stunning on me.

4. Stupendous Snippet

How important first steps can be. Just the process of lifting up the foot forward and stepping down and doing that over and over again, literally. For a baby isn’t that one of the most important things in child development, I suppose. The excitement in the parents faces in their child taken their first step or the disappointment when the kid takes forever to start walking says it all. Plus, there must be some comfort in crawling. I guess I can say that because I was once a baby, but let me not kid you, I can’t remember.

The same way we look at kids with so much hope and excitement in their first step is the the same way other people look up to us in making our first step. It could be our parents, partners, lecturers, friends, employers and so on. So in as much as the crawling is comfortable (where we don’t make effort, we’re just there), it’s about time we took the first step in. Yeah, in that which crossed your mind or that which you thought of while reading this.

Don’t worry about resources, the strength, the amount of work that’s in it for you or the distance that you have to cover. You’ll deal with that along the way. Most of what matters is taking that first step.

5. T.G.I.F Inspiration

With the weekend coming on, a holiday that was to be is getting wasted *frowns*. 20th October 2012 falls on Saturday and it’s getting eaten up by the weekend monster, just like that. That being besides the point, as usual definitely have a kick ass weekend even if you spend it sleeping and reading like me. To living, laughing and loving more.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Parrot Talk

For lack of a topic, someone say “word block” as I dig right into it. We are all unique persons and special in our own way but isn’t it funny how we just sometimes imagine that we are more important than other people when put in certain similar situations. Like you deserve better than the other person or somehow you should be pulled out from that scenario first, like you’re too cool for it. A special treatment kind of thing. With that thought, all your common courtesy becomes too common and you let it out the window all together, I mean both the common and the courtesy.

Parrot Talk: We are unique and special in our own way but we’re all still parrots when faced with the same predicaments.

Say you’re stuck in bad traffic and you’re extremely frustrated due to a number of reasons, such as:

  1. You’re getting late for a meeting or for work,
  2. You just need to reach home and put your legs up as you sip some hot chocolate and catch up with your favorite programme,
  3. Someone’s has been impatiently waiting for you and they’re giving you pressure,
  4. There’s an emergency that needs to be attended to as soon as possible,
  5. Your fuel tank is blinking *empty* and it’s bumper to bumper. There’s a fat chance you could stall.
  6. Traffic has got nothing on you, you’re just bumping music and enjoying it but of course cursing a lil bit here and there.

Lets assume those are 6 different people, each frustrated due to their own reason. However unique we all are, we’ve have been subjected to this situation together. The ones driving their sleek, normal or beat up cars, to the ones using public transport. Maybe the ones in their cars at least have their own space, air conditioning, good music unlike the ones in public transport. But still we’re all facing the same problem.

There’s a chance that person 1. could think that person 2. as per the reasons provided above, is having a field day as they wait for the traffic as they clear off. For a moment there person 1. puts themselves on a pedestal, up there and all over sudden it’s them against the world. If they could shove the cars to pave some way for themselves, they would. This is you, if you see it fit to just overtake all the other “patiently parked” cars and squeeze in somewhere as the far front and feel good about yourself.

Another crazy scenario, you enter the bank and you find the queue has nicely and stagnantly coiled itself like a well fed anaconda, did you just see what I did there?. Now this is me, I have just come to pay my rent because my landlord has this account at National Bank. Am telling you it’s like that bank is cursed, whether you go in the morning, tea time, lunch time, the long lines never miss. The rent has to be paid and as much as I think that I have to go back to the office or I have other errands to run, I have to snail through the line. Sometimes I wish I knew someone so that I can make that payment in a jiffy or I knew one the people at the front of the queue, so that I could sneak my way through. I also feel overly special sometimes, maybe almost all the time. Like why the hell are there long lines in the first place, if only I had a say over it.

It’s amazing how the world brings you back to your feet, when your head is floating up in the sky. Such situations remind us that we’re all unique but there are certain things that put us in the same calibre with the rest regardless.

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*

Simple Pleasures

Thursday people where you at? One of those day’s you are overcome by a sudden rush of happiness that you can’t quite fathom but you can almost put a finger to the things that make you feel such. You know those things that in their simple state, just for being what they are bring you so much pleasure. No, they don’t have to try so hard, they don’t have to change their state to make you feel over the moon. It’s like you loving water as it is, it doesn’t have to freeze to become ice for you to enjoy it or boil to evaporation to show you that it has potential.

Sometimes we take these things for granted. Sometimes knowingly or unknowingly. Why not take sometime to identify some of them and just bring them to light. Yeah, that’s what I thought to myself and I shall do just that. Here a few of my favorite things (reminds me of the old classic “Sound of Music”, I want to re-watch it):

○ Flavored pancakes or french toasts (is it me or or do men make these stuff better, bf does)

○ Carrot bites and their crunchiness (crunch crunch crunch! I see better, kidding, but there’s something about chewing on carrots)

○ Crisps and a sip of Ribena (divine)

○ Nice home cooked meal (I’m not so choosy, as long as it’s delish)

○ Family meet ups (there’s so much to catch up on)

○ Road trip jokes and laughter (Medal goes to the folks, those two are the funniest people I have ever met…not kidding by the way, they complement each others jokes so it becomes even funnier)

○ Kodak moments (just posing for the flash, wasssuuuuup!)

○ Long hot showers (I wish my hair was water friendly, there’s a niceness in the water running through your hair and to your face, for now shower caps will just do)

○ Spongy “melt-in-your-mouth” cakes (And you wonder why I love birthdays)

○ One nice movie (research shows that there’s a high probability that I’ll sleep on the second one…lol)

○ Poker during a power black out (you should try this out, you forget there’s a black out and you curse K.P.L.C less, fun times)

Those are just a few, thought I would list them to just remind myself how lucky I am despite the stresses of life. We have so much more to smile about every other day and we fail to realise that. What are some of your simple pleasures?

Quote of the day

It’s Thursday, that day if you haven’t said your thank you’s or been truthful you get the chance to. Give thanks and be truthful to yourself and to others. Tomorrow is Friday, wooptidooo!

Signing off  ~~~ *Kawi*

“Looking Back…

over my shoulder, I can see the look in your eyes…” totally feeling Mike and the Mechanics right now. For the record, I’m neither good at memorizing lyrics nor singing along. This is one of the few including some old school rock songs that I can comfortably sing along and pull some karaoke moves … in the shower though.

I was doing my round of blogs then came around this one that asked:

Go back to one of your first blog posts. What did you write? Share an excerpt if you feel comfortable. How have you and your blog grown since then? Source

Wow! This feels like going back to my nursery and primary school books and reading my compositions if you know what I mean. But this one can’t be as bad, my composition back then were rib crackers. I swear if someone like my folks unleashed one of them I would die of shame…haha!

My first blog post : The Elusive. I was so green in this writing/blogging world it’s just nostalgic. I hadn’t read many blogs so to say, I was more of a books and magazines kind of girl. The writers there were my role models as I tried to make sense of my thoughts and communicate them to you, you and you. Here’s an excerpt;

“Everyone has their weakness and strengths. What I usually say is that if you can handle the weakness of the other person then you’re set. This does not only apply to relationships but to friends and family too. It is how you handle the other persons weakness that keeps you close together because you can eventually even turn that weakness into a strength … SWOT analysis comes in handy haha!”

That was a random post by the way! Thanks to @Suetiful, @Nkirdizzle and @Putty_Catt for coercing me into starting up a blog. This is just after we had finished campus and were new to the working world. How time flies. They were partly the reason for my second blog post: Ho’s n Bro’s. Interesting post right there. There was a jumble up but I think my point came through. Here’s an excerpt;

“So all those boy mistakes I have made previously have modeled me into who I am today. Cheers to you. It’s so funny how to relate with boys/girls it’s like you need a manual, or rather that’s how many people view/put it, its like there are rules and regulation. I mean, boys, they are just human beings like the girls too. They have everything the girl has of course except the physical appearances and bodily functions , male testosterone vs female estrogen, otherwise every other thing is the same they’ve got feelings, they get hurt, they get happy and sad. If you pour something hot on them they get burnt too…okay, am now being sarcastic. But honestly, there’s no rule in any book that stipulates how you should treat a man/woman, or even if you get any, it wont work, because you have to learn the person and know what it is that they want/like because every person is different. My thought, you have to learn and grow into people to know what tickles their fancy, what puts them off.”

Funny thing is that I’ve always written about life, what I think of it, the lessons I learn from the many happenings and where I see myself in it. I beat around the bush, before making the point clear. More of trying to make you understand my point of view before bringing in the conclusion.

300+ posts and 3 years down the line, some things have definitely changed or improved to the better. Just like wine, I get better with age. From the thought process, presentation, wording, prose, spellings e.t.c. I still have a long way to go, hope a few years down the line I will be able to make something out of the blog like help a life or two in one way or another, have it work for me, change it to a website, change its look. There’s so much room for improvement it’s overwhelming.

In other very unrelated news, formerly this day was Moi Day (10/10/year). However, our leaders felt that we either had too many holidays or Moi was full of himself for declaring a holiday in his name. So in the new constitution you can guess what transpired, the holiday was axed! Now I’m proudly working and building the nation on what was to be Moi Day and boy isn’t the day dragging!

Signing Off ~~~ *Kawi*